I haven't seen it for a while now and was wondering if I would be able to find it again, as it really would come in quite handy again now.
It was quite prominent during the early years and grew into quite a force to be reckoned with during my teenage years; even after the knock of my parents divorcing, it resurfaced and recovered quite quickly.
In fact, it served me rather well until my early twenties. It allowed me to go out and do what I wanted. I could deal with most situations without too much worry and things like job interviews, well they were a real breeze.
It even allowed me to live in France for a year and that was quite something, going to live on my own in a different country and leaving everything behind me. That was a good year for my confidence and that year we peaked.
But I suppose for every peak there has to be a trough. An unexpected pregnancy and a not so great relationship gave it a bit of a battering. A real battering actually. We did struggle together for a few years after that until I met my now husband who worked relentlessly to coax my diminished confidence out of its hiding place.
Slowly but surely, my confidence and I grew quite close again and we managed to achieve some amazing things together. But since I have had my other children, it has gone off for a wander again, leaving me to cope single handed with the prospect of trying to get back into the working world again and to be something other than just a mum. I have become a dab hand at pretending that I have it in some situations, but that doesn't always work.
I could really do with it coming back right now, so if you see it, send it my way!
What pops into the head of a very busy, usually stressed out mum of four!
I've got it throwing it back at you xx
ReplyDeleteKnow how you feel. Can send hugs instead of confidence?!
ReplyDeleteNo idea sorry, but wanted to say I think you're great and sending big hugs. x
ReplyDeleteKeep acting 'as if' until it returns for good. It will, honest.
ReplyDeleteYou have lots to offer a potential employer and you have to keep remebering that. We are all more than just Mums.
Mich x
Keep saying in your head everything will work out just how you want. You have gorgeous kids who believe in their Mum I'm sure, so just use their belief to bring back your confidence in yourself. Good luck :)
ReplyDeleteGet organised, de-clutter, go through your wardrobe, festering make-up everything - chuck out stuff, go through the whole house like a mad nutter - a cluttered home is a cluttered mind. I find it works for me and painting my toenails - I don't know why that one particularly. After that you need to do exercise if you don't already. Wii dance anything like that. It will return. Guaranteed. Look forward - this is who you are now x
ReplyDeleteSuch an honest post and something I'm sure all mums feel to some degree - I've got fabulous friends who've been off work for 6 or 7 years and are now thinking about going back and are suffering massive crises of confidence! One thing that massively helped me was a visit to "Colour Me Beautiful" - sounds crazy but the lady there made me realise I was hiding behind a safe "mummy" uniform and that I needed to get out there and get some colour in my life. With the colour came some confidence ... worth a try??
ReplyDeleteI think mich is right, if you keep acting as if you have it, before you know it it will have genuinely returned. Until then big hugs
ReplyDeleteI think ours are off cavorting somewhere. I'm in a really similar situation (first pregnancy bad relationship sent it off, regained but after second child it's vanished again & trying to get back into work is a mare) I've tried waiting for it to return, but now I'm hunting it down. I'm not sure if this will work but I'll let you know! Wishing you all the best!
ReplyDelete~ Ginger x
I feel the same but am working hard at acting as if I am and hoping like Michelle says that eventually I'll fool myself!
ReplyDeleteBig hugs, you're great xx