I haven't seen it for a while now and was wondering if I would be able to find it again, as it really would come in quite handy again now.
It was quite prominent during the early years and grew into quite a force to be reckoned with during my teenage years; even after the knock of my parents divorcing, it resurfaced and recovered quite quickly.
In fact, it served me rather well until my early twenties. It allowed me to go out and do what I wanted. I could deal with most situations without too much worry and things like job interviews, well they were a real breeze.
It even allowed me to live in France for a year and that was quite something, going to live on my own in a different country and leaving everything behind me. That was a good year for my confidence and that year we peaked.
But I suppose for every peak there has to be a trough. An unexpected pregnancy and a not so great relationship gave it a bit of a battering. A real battering actually. We did struggle together for a few years after that until I met my now husband who worked relentlessly to coax my diminished confidence out of its hiding place.
Slowly but surely, my confidence and I grew quite close again and we managed to achieve some amazing things together. But since I have had my other children, it has gone off for a wander again, leaving me to cope single handed with the prospect of trying to get back into the working world again and to be something other than just a mum. I have become a dab hand at pretending that I have it in some situations, but that doesn't always work.
I could really do with it coming back right now, so if you see it, send it my way!